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Monday, February 16th, 2009
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11:55 pm - Hearts Day
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On this day of hearts birds will sing,
‘Coz on this day of hearts love’s name will ring.
On this day of hearts the rivers flow,
‘Coz on this day of hearts true feelings show.
On this day of hearts you’ll feel no dismay,
‘Coz on this day of hearts the skies won’t turn gray.
On this day of hearts don’t feel so bad,
‘Coz on this day of hearts you won’t be sad.
On this day of hearts I hope that you smile,
‘Coz on this day of hearts I’ll take every mile.
On this day of hearts don’t feel like sh*t,
‘Coz on this day of hearts our hearts will meet.
On this day of hearts you’ll feel all the glee,
‘Coz on this day of hearts you’ll find me. :)
(021309)
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| Saturday, July 8th, 2006
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11:11 pm - out on the streets
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pig intestines on a rail road
together with a video player
recorded with the sins of men..
the feet with no where to run
unattached to the skin
punctured on the center
with a sugar stick..
is this what we've become?
the children wrapped naranja
we soaked in sour saltness
a trident to their pearl flesh..
the coined sons of the seas
swimming in stainless ponds
and soon into the sweet dirt..
direct me into what is real.
unsanitary purity
undeserved casualty
drunken with the memory
believable insanity..
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| Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
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9:38 pm - sa isip ko..
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kanina iniisip ko kung pupunta ako o hinde.. naisip ko wag nalang kasi baka ayaw.. naisip ko wag nalang kasi baka bawal.. naisip ko wag nalang kasi baka hindi pa dapat.. edi hindi ako pumunta.. maaga pa naman nun.. nagpunta nalang ako sa recto. nung pauwi nako, inisip ko ulit kung pupunta ko. naisip ko ulit wag nalang.. ung mga rason ulit.. hindi ako pumunta.. umuwi nalang ako.. nung nasa fx ako pauwi, iniisip ko pa rin kung bababa ako at pupunta ako.. abot pa naman ako.. nung nakita ko mula sa sasakyan naisip ko, ano kaya kung bumaba ako at tumuloy sa pagpunta? nag-isip ako hanggang sa lumagpas na at hindi nako pumunta. pero naisip ko, ano kaya kung pumunta ko? natuwa kaya siya? alam ko ako siguro matutuwa.. ok siguro kung pumunta ko.. ano ngayon kung ayaw? ano ngayon kung bawal? at least pumunta ko.. ok siguro un.. pero ewan ko.. naisip ko to habang nasa fx ako pauwi.. naisip kaya niya ko? siguro sa susunod nalang.. sumakit ulo ko sa mga naisip ko, tsaka sumikip din dibdib ko.. sana naisip niya ko..
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| Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
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11:36 pm - random
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uh, what do i have to say? hmm..
it's already the third week of my 2nd year in the Ateneo. and it's still a long way beybeh! hahaha!
it's my 2nd year in the Ateneo and it's my third year in college. i should be slacking off by this time but unfortunately, i'm currently in what i think will be the hardest year of my college life. there's so many things to do already. arrgh.. so many readings and stuff.. and for me, they're boring. they don't even capture my interest, blah.. and some of the subjects that i'm currently taking, i've already taken up in ust. what a waste of time. well, enough about this crap..
i was reading through some journals and i got inspired that's why i'm writing right now.
there are so many things circling in my mind these days.. but i can't seem to figure them out. or i just keep on forgetting them.. i guess they're stuff about school, about my life, about someone, etc.. i don't know..
i'm tired. i played basketball during PE, and i easilly got exhausted. maybe i should do regular exercise.. some jogging or stuff..
weekend, come here beybeh! come on! i wanna have some fun already! ahahah!
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11:23 pm - to hear everything aloud..
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we live by messages everyday, wish i could hold you..
ooohhh the drrraaamaaa.. x|
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| Thursday, June 29th, 2006
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9:42 pm - blog ulit..
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blog nalang ako ulit...
tapos na first week of classes. buong linggo akong uminom. first week pa lang naman eh. cut din agad ako sa theo, 2nd meeting pa lng eh.. pero un, ano napala ko? nagquiz sila, absent ako. first week pa lng eh noh? dami na rin kaagad kelangang basahin.. haay nako..
friday last week wala kmeng pasok, faculty day daw eh.. first week pa lng wala na agad pasok eh noh? pero ok. nakadalaw akong uste at naka-inuman ko mga dati kong kaklase.. namiss ko pla sila, pati mismo ung environment namiss ko.. na-excite ako pagdating ko kaya lng d ako nakalibot, sayang. dko naspotan mga bagong bldg. sa susunod nlng ulit.
ngayong week ambiles lng.. thursday na agad.. astig! bukas weekend na ulit.. tas 13/16 pa ko sa acctng quiz, yes! yes yes aww! ahaha! :D d ako nakakabasa ng mga readings kc d ko nakukuha sa lib.. :s
napagod ako kanina.. pagdating ko pa lng sa skul nagpalit agad ako ng shirt.. ang init ehh!! 2 classes tapos nag-pe ako, basketbol. nabitin ako sa laro.. tas nung nagbihis ako ang init pa rin. syet! abot singit! hahah!
pag-uwi ko nakita ko mga magulang ko sa daan, kaso nasa loob na ng subd. kaya konti lng ang pagsabay ko sa kotse. buti may uwing pizza, yey! :D nagboxing ako dito sa bahay. ay, pinagsusuntok ko pla ung punching bag, ewan ko kng boxing tawag dun! :D tas nagdumbbells ng konti, nekene, ahaha! tas sumaway na parang baliw... sa harap ni momi habang may kausap sya sa telepono! ahaha! saraaap.. pero nakakapagod.. pero ok..
bukas.. san nanaman kaya ako pupunta? d pwede si thea, sayang.. yoko naman umattend ng cheer rally, la naman akong gagawin dun.. pero tutugtog saranggola ni pepe eh, sila lee un.. mga english blockmates ko iinom ata bukas.. inom nanaman? pag-iisipan ko pa.. mga kaklase ko nung hs miss ko na.. 1 linggo ko na silang d nakikita kaso midterms na nila eh.. sa mall of asia fete de la musique, sarap pumunta pero sino naman kasama ko? bahala na.. basta d agad ako uuwi bukas, weekend eh!
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| Saturday, June 17th, 2006
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3:41 pm - solb!
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ansaya kagabi! solb eh! habulan sa may pasong tamo ah, san ka pa? ahahah! ung mga tao parang: "ano un bat may mga nagtatakbuhan? snatcher?" ahaha! mga ulul nag-eenjoy lng kme! pano ba naman kc, yaak eh, si drake lapitin ng ipis ampucha! ahaha! aun, para kmeng gumawa ng music video, kulang nalang nakahubad kme eh.. ahahah! speaking of nakahubad, wala kong suot na brip pauwe! laban ka? ahahah! swimming kme eh... night swimming sa madaling araw?! ahahah! pagkatapos ng takbuhan swimming eh noh, pasmado tuloy buong katawan, parang kmeng epileptic! ahaha! basta saya nung gabi na un! inom, kwentuhan, tawanan, drama, kahit anong trip, enjoy eh! ahaha! sana enjoy lng lagi! mamaya ulit may party! solb nanaman! babush! :D
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| Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
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11:11 pm - it's been a while..
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yeah, it's been a while since huli akong nagsulat dito.. unang purpose kc nito para sa skul lng pero tingin ko at susubukan kong i-update nato regularly. na-inggit ako eh, hahah!
haay.. wala pa rin kameng pasok.. pero d naman ako makaalis ng bahay.. nasa ospital kc si dadi at nakabantay sa kanya si momi kaya nitong huling tatlong araw, dito lang ako sa bahay. wala akong ginawa kundi gumising ng tanghali, kumain, pahinga sandali tas sundo sa pamangkin ko sa st.andrews. pagdating dito, tulog o kaya nood na ng tv hanggang gabi na tas kain-nood tv ulit tas internet hanggang madaling araw tas tulog.
paulit2 sa loob ng tatlong araw.. nakakatamad. nakakabato. walang aksiyon eh. boring. may pasok na kc karamihan sa mga tao eh, pero buti nlng may mga nakakachat pa rin akong ok.. sa weekend babawi ako ng alis. adventure sana. un ang masaya eh.. o kaya basta kahit anong masaya. pasukan nanaman sa 19 eh. sana ok tong taon na to..
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| Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
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8:56 am - r18 - SOLID!
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en11, en12, lit13, lit14 - they won't be that fun if it weren't for my LOVABLE R18 blockmates. the year's almost over and were about to be separated from each other. haay... first year in the ateneo wouldn't be the same without them. we had so much fun, we laugh all the time, we tell jokes, we share problems and secrets, and all that jazz. it would be really great if we'd still be classmates 'til next year, and the next, and the next, haha. but seriously, i'm really going to miss them. they've become my second family and my closest friends other than my high school barkada. going to class with them is like giving ice cream to a kid. being with them takes the stress that i've experienced during the day (even if our classes were always in the morning). even if were having tests or exams we still have fun while taking it. we just enjoy, and that makes it fun. i just wish we had more time together and more opportunities were there for us to bond more.
ps and ofcourse, the class wouldn't be complete without our professors - sir miggy, sir kokoy and sir elmo. i love them all, especially sir escano (love you sir!).
qouting from what keannu reeves said in the movie the replacements: "it's been an honor sharing the field in battle with you guys." i love you all. especially ehem...
from the ataris' song in this diary: "being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives. the only thing that matters is following your heart and eventually you'll finally get it right."
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| Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
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8:17 pm - Childhood...
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Weeks ago, me and my lovable R18 blockmates went on a fieldtrip to the Hotair Balloon Festival in Clark, Pampanga. Even though I was frustrated that we didn't get to ride a hotair balloon, I still had fun with them. We enjoyed the sight of hotair balloons floating in the air, the planes doing their air shows, the rides that we rode all together, etc.
In the car, when we were going back to Manila, we had a sharing of our childhood memories. We talked about the things that we used to do 10 years ago. We talked about the schools that we've entered since we started schooling, the hobbies that made us busy back then, and etc.
For me, it was nice that I got to know what they were like when they were young. We also found out that some of us went into same schools but didn't get the chance to meet each other back then. I felt that I became closer to them through what we did. I wish that I had known them before. It think that its fun growing up with them and being real close to them like real brothers and sisters. Well, it didn't happen, but atleast we're friends now, and what we can do is to just deepen what we have now. We just have to hang on and keep each other so that even our children can become the bestest of friends.Ü
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| Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
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9:18 pm - ultra stampede
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Last Saturday was chaos. Almost eighty people were killed and hundreds were hurt in the stampede that occured in Ultra. Many people flocked to attend the anniversary celebration of the TV show WOWOWEE. Many came with hopes of winning the contests and taking money home with them.
With these in mind, all their dreams were shattered. They believed that they would get something from going there but what they got instead was bruises, injuries and some even lost their lives.
Because of the economic status of these people, they were willing to do everything. They were willing to even risk their lives. What a tragedy...
If only the government would act on this... If only they would do something to stop this poverty that is presently dominating our country... Then, everyone will be happy... I guess..
Maybe many people think they'll be happy when they have lots of money. Well, we can't blame them for having such way of thinking. When you have lots of many you can buy everything you need and anything you want. Me, if only I don't need to survive, I'll be happy with just my family and friends. I'll be contented with just having enough for what I need, and little for what I want. But still, it involves money. From what they say: "Money makes the world go round."
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| Monday, January 23rd, 2006
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9:10 pm - there's no "i" in team...
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"bestfriends means bestfriends for means..."
real friends are hard to find. so, once you found them, take good care of them and keep them for life.
yesterday we had our alumni homecoming. we've been very excited for this event even weeks before. its nice seeing each other once again. friends that we meet regularly, friends that we talk to but we don't see, and friends that we haven't seen or talked to for a long time.
upon seeing each other, laughter was all over our faces. we shook our hands and even hugged one another upon eye contact. we exchanged stories and updates about our lives. we had dinner and drinks together.
my barkada is one of the things that i love in my life. i consider them as one of my treasures. i enjoy being with them that's why i make sure that i get to meet them once in a week.
in bad times or in good times, my friends are always there for me. they're the ones that i can count to each time i'm down and they're also the ones who i can share laughter with.
i'm happy that i have a set of friends like them. they never let me down. i wish that our friendship will last until forever and i hope that in the future when we already have our own families, we'll still be friends and the members of our own families are friends with each other as well. we've grown up together, we'll grow old together, and we'll die together... as friends...
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| Friday, January 20th, 2006
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9:01 pm - in this diary...
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"being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up.. these are the best days of our lives.." - the ataris
this is my favorite line from the song "in this diary" by the ataris. actually, this is one of my favorite song lines and it can also be considered as one of my mottos in life.
everytime i hear the song or remember that line, i forget about my problems in life. i put them all aside and think about enjoying my life at the moment. i think about doing things that i enjoy - things that i'll be happy about. i put to mind that i'll only go through this stage of my life once and i can never go back once i've aged so i'll live this stage the best way that i can - enjoying life as a teen-ager, not minding the future but only the present moment. it may be a careless way of thinking but i think that we should have this from time to time. for us to unwind and see the beauty that life has for us. for us to be free from the constraints of the world and our life.
i know in roughly 3 or 4 years i'll be graduating from college and face real life. by that time i have to be independent and i have to prepare for it and now's the time. but still, "being grown up isn't really half as fun as growing up", so what the heck. i'll just enjoy... for now...Ü
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| Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
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12:15 am - (//_-)
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hmm, it's been awhile since i last logged in here. i think nows a good time because i suddenly felt sad knowing that someone's also sad. the mood / atmosphere nowadays also adds to the sadness. it's like memories of good and bad are coming back to me and uhh, i can'y describe it. now, all i hope is that i'll find a right moment, a right timing, the right words, and ofcourse, the guts. i really really really want to "act" now, but i'm still not feeling that strong enough. i guess, i'll wait again. in time, in time..
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| Sunday, September 4th, 2005
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8:35 pm - dream, dream, dream...
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i saw my crush in a classroom and it seemed like we were studying in the same school. i said hi to her and she answered back at me, smiling. i kept passing by her room to have a glance at her because she was seated near the jalousies. passing by her room again, i was about to talk to her when there was a guy who approached her, and after that event, i suddenly woke up.
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| Monday, August 29th, 2005
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10:42 pm - "night, why are you so sad?"
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there are some nights when you feel that you're so far down; that you feel so cold, so alone, and so helpless. its like you feel that you can't do anything right and that you can't do something about it. its like the whole world is falling down on you. its these times that you just want to lock yourself up in your room, lights turned out, music fills you, and you just want to cry. you think of everything; your family, your friends, your studies, love, your life. its when you take all of the blame for things that you know you didnt even do, - the things that everyone told you that you did. they think that they know you that well, but the truth is, they dont. they just see everything you do as wrong, as mistakes. sometimes you just wish that you could just forget all these things and just be happy, but you cant. you're stuck with that feeling. its like even the whole tone of the night coincides with your sadness, - the wind blowing in your face, the dark starless sky, the moon absent on its day. - sleep and wash all of these away. shit. its as if its just that easy. xoutx
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| Sunday, August 7th, 2005
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9:27 pm - "dream to make believe" - armor for sleep
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It's funny how
things work out,
the ones we need
don't know we're there
If I were sand
and you were oceans,
the moon would be
why you're pulled to me
I wake up and think dreams are real
I sleep so I don't have to feel
the truth that you can never be
the one person that won't ever forget me
I hope that dreams
come when I die
so we can talk
I won't wake up
I'll ask you how
your life worked out
I'll never know
that I'm just dreaming
I wake up and think dreams are real
I sleep so I don't have to feel
the truth that you can never be
the one person that won't ever forget me
Let me sleep some more...
i had this dream last night, and this dream is about the girl that had been present in my past few dreams. i think im so much attached or probably inlove with this girl that's why it is such. its a great thing, the concept of dreams. they make us be in what we want for such a time, but at the same they also make us see what we're afraid of (nightmares). sleep is a good thing in such it connects us to another world, which is our dreams. in the other way, it also washes away the things that came our way during that day, may it be good or bad. and in our attachment to that certain thing, i guess, is where our dreams arise. "let me sleep some more.."
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| Sunday, July 24th, 2005
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11:44 pm - drama
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i can seem to figure out why, when you're around i seem to be astounded by your prescence. as if i'm travelling into space where there's no air and i can't breathe. how i wish i could get close to you even just a bit. i wish that you can see how desperate i am. that i would do anything, even die, just to be near you.
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| Tuesday, July 19th, 2005
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9:28 pm - Repel Every Gunshot
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the heartaches that he gave you, i drew them all away.
i'd keep them in so you won't ever feel.
i saw you when you're beautiful, while he just led you down.
he never gave a smiling face for you.
he treats you like a servant, while you can be my queen.
just tell me what i wrong and i'll be there.
i will take your sorrows and kill them all away.
i promise i would still be here for you.
we'll see through the details and work it in time.
believe me it will turn out just this fine.
you told me that you wished that it was me.
but it was only at that time, and the feeling faded away.
but what's for him has always stayed.
and it wont be the same for me.
but i'd still even die to see your smile. </3
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| Sunday, July 17th, 2005
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3:45 pm - </3
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x yesterday was quite a simple day. i woke up early and did nothing. i just ate and slept until it's time for our band practice at 6pm at transound studio in conchu st., taft ave., manila. we had two hours of practice for our gig, which will be on the 23rd at new world renaissance hotel in makati. it will be for our friend's 18th birthday. we just practiced two songs, then we completed our composition. after practice, we hung out for awhile then we all went home. i arrived at around 9:30. i ate dinner and after, i slept. end of the day </3 x
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